I think i might start writing again

If it isn’t clear, which of course it isn’t, this is a map. I felt very sure that it meant something when I made it. I have no fucking idea what it means. Some map.

But then again, maybe not. The last time I wrote an entry on this website was two years ago. A lot happened.

Fuck. A lot happened.

But then again, maybe not. I was rereading these and thought they were from last year. I thought to myself, “Shit, I was very optimistic at the start of that very incredibly difficult and painful year I just had.” Is is better that there was a year more in there?

I think, I haven’t written in a long time because I’ve been talking to AI. Probably too much. Technically, that is writing. Technically, all those AIM messages I sent when I was a kid were the start of my practice as a writer. Technically, my online girlfriend was probably a middle aged man.

But then again, maybe not.

I’ve learned a lot of things in two years. One is that it is still fun to write. Another is that I’ve become a better person and a better artist by failing. I wish I could have skipped the part where I had to fail for so long between the last post I wrote where I felt like things were going well and now.

But then again.